(LILIAN C. SCHEUER)

(L.C.S)

the sun is the first thing 
i noticed when i saw 
the video of him being 
a little bit of a jerk 
on the internet 

when i saw his face 
in the middle of the night 
and he looked at me 
like i was the one who 
was trying to be funny 

but he just said that 
i look so funny and then
proceeded to laugh 
and i was so confused 
by his reaction 

and i thought he was joking 
but then he started crying 
so i started crying 
and i was just so sad 
that he didn’t even know 
what he meant

— the sun / screen glow / (display) brightness / glaring into the sun



i love this game so much 
but i don’t know how to play 
the games i want to play 
but it’s a good game 
and i want to try 
to play them all the time 
and play with them every time 
they come out of the box 
and play with me

— the game of life



the only way i could 
ever be able is you can 
see the difference 
between a man 
and a girl in a dress 
or dress that you wear 
in the summer of love 
or the summer of peace 
or a woman who 
has been married for 
two months or so 
in a single year 
or two years 
and you will be happy 
and proud to know 
what the world is

— becoming



the other way around 

i hope that your day 
goes well too 
and you can rest 
well soon too 
my dear friend 

and thank you for always 
being there for my love 
and prayers and prayers 
and prayers for you 
and the rest of my life 
i hope that you are well 
and have a wonderful 
day ahead 

my dear friend
i love you so much 
and always will be here for me 
i love your energy and love 
and i hope that you are having 
the same energy as me

— the other way around



i think it’s just 
a matter of time 
until the end of time 
and you will be back 
in your place again 
i think it’s a bit 
too soon for you 
but you can still be 
here for a while 
if you’re ready to
come home to
me and you 

— reunited



when you get home from work today 
and then you get back to work tomorrow 
and then you’re done with work 
and then you’re back to work 
and then you’re going back home again 
and then you’re gone

— the fate of sisyphus



the best angel ever 
you are my heart and soul 
i will never be able 
to be happy again and 
you will never be alone again 
i will never forget that day 
i will never forget this moment and 
i will forever remember you and 
i love you so deeply 
my heart is you

— angel (my heart is you)



the one who said 
you don’t like me 
but you don’t know 
what you want 
to do with me 

and i’m 
you know 
what to do 
with your life 
and your body 

when you’re 
in the middle 
of the road 
with a car 
and a dog 
on your lap 

or something 
like that lol 
you know 
what you want 
to do to me

— petting zoo / hunting zone



the only person 
who can make me laugh is 
you are the only person 
who can make me smile 
in the morning 
when i’m the first thing 
you should be looking at 
when you get home 
from the gym 
in the morning 
when you’re ready 
for the day to 
come to you

— the only person (in the morning)



i don’t know what to do with myself anymore 
because i don’t know what to do anymore 
and i don’t know what i want anymore 
so i don’t know what to do with me 
and i don’t even know what to do about you 
and i don’t know what to say to you 
and i don’t know what to think about myself 
and i don’t know why i feel like this 

— the age of confusion



the way i feel is 
you know how i feel 
with the way you treat me 
and how you feel about me 

i just want to know 
what you think about me 
so that we could be together 
and be friends again 

— the uncertainty of being left (with no answers)



the only thing 
i would add 
to the list 
of people 
who are going to 
be in the top 
of the list 
are those who are 
already on top 
of the lists 
and those who 
aren’t already 
on the list 
are not going to 
be on the list 
for the rest 
of the list

— the list



and look for another job 
in the same place as you are now 
because you don’t want to go 
to the same job again

and you want to be there 
for the next job that you want 
and then you don’t have to go 
back to the next one

— stockholm syndrome



the kids will come to your door 
and you will have to 
come to the front gate 
to open the door for them 
and they will go inside 
to get you out of there 
and then you will have to wait 
until they come back 
to get you inside the door 
and then they will be there 
to pick you up at your front door 
so they can go to the back door 
and you will have to go to your door 
to unlock your doors 
so you can get in there 
and get your stuff out 
and then you will have to go back 
and go to your car 
and get your clothes and stuff 
and get your shoes 
and everything else 
and get the key 
and then you can go home 
to the car seat

— front door / car seat



i will never forget you 
forever my baby 
i will always remember 
your words and your love and 
my prayers for your happiness 
always and always and 
always and forever 
my dear angel 
you will be missed forever

— always and forever



and then you 
have to go 
to the bathroom 
and then you 
go back 
to the bathroom 
to do the dishes 
and then you 
get to go back 
to the kitchen 
to clean 
your bathroom 
and then you 
can come over 
and clean 
my bathroom 
and i will be 
there 
in the kitchen 
for you 
to clean 
my bathroom 
for me

— in between / the bathroom / two rooms / perpetual cycle



they are supposed to 
be working with me 
on a plan to get 
them out of there 
so that i don’t lose 
my mind over 
the weekend 

but they have been 
trying to do this 
since the first time 
they left the house 
so that i could go 
home and sleep for 
the rest of my life

— pest control



one for the team 
to be able to see 
how much of the 
game was played 
and how much of the 
action was taken 
to get to know 
each player better 
and how they played 
in each other

— one for the team

© 2026 LILIAN C. SCHEUER